Taking care of myself cos no1 can care better than me, altho a lot of me has put other people infront of me.. It's time I learn to bring back my old self. The one who doesn't care too much and do what I WANT to do =) this time without having to hurt anyone along the way. I know I'm a good person, I might have done a few wrong decisions, but that's for some people to learn something from it. Right now, I just have to let go of the things that are hurting me, and taking care of the things that will get me higher. I'm so proud of myself!!! I'm so proud of all the things that I have overcame. I'm happy to know that I am better in a lot of ways. Even if I feel alone I know I'm not.. I have the Lord with me. I've always had him in my heart <3 He's put me through all of this because he knows I am capable, and he has his purpose. I've aready been damaged but even when I've gone through so much dark hours, I still manage to forgive and I still care for the ones that don't deserve it. I still manage to let it not break me fully. I still manage to have my heart.

Just for you:

     Even if u don't love me the way I do for you, it's okey. That is life. Everything was well understood. A lot of the reasons why I held myself together because I know you're not perfect like how the world works. I know I have to care about me because giving it the best of me might've made me insane. I'm glad I was stronger than that. At least we both know, what went wrong. I know we will always have a great bond. And how important u were to mine as how I was to yours. The alienation that we felt because of another and overcame all that. I wont forget that and my respects will always be with yours even if I am X'in you out of my life. Time will always heal itself. I know that and I am always HOPEFUL. Always hopeful because no matter what happens to me, he will be there.

     I will be dedicating some time so I can fully be with you.. So I can be part of your kingdom. Because even when I'm surrounded with those who hasn't thought of you when times count the most. I haven't forgotten the prayers that were answered when I was young. 

DEEP THOUGHTS

Blah,.. I'm on vacay,.. Kinda mixed feelings... No fun with family but yet gotta love em. I love my daddy!!

I have so much goin on in mah damn head, but leaving it all aside cos I have so much more to do... One thing is getting the fck outta here.. Only me can do the changes. I have a lot of bookings right after this vacay.. Gotta pay the expenses!! blah blah... werd.. Plannin on my next vacay!!!